I am not afraid of anything. I am only afraid of being afraid. — Nawal El Saadawi
—What lingers after this line?
One-minute reflection
Why might this line matter today, not tomorrow?
A Bold Claim with a Subtle Twist
Nawal El Saadawi’s statement opens with an almost defiant certainty—“I am not afraid of anything”—only to pivot toward a more intimate vulnerability: she fears “being afraid.” That turn matters, because it distinguishes external threats from the internal state that can shrink a person’s life before any danger even arrives. In other words, the quote isn’t a denial of reality; it’s a refusal to let fear govern perception and choice. By naming fear itself as the enemy, El Saadawi frames courage not as invincibility, but as a disciplined relationship to one’s own emotions.
Fear as a Second-Order Prison
Moving deeper, the line highlights a “second-order” fear: not the fear of a particular event, but the fear of experiencing fear. This is the kind of anticipatory dread that multiplies suffering—worrying about panic, worrying about weakness, worrying about how fear might expose you. As a result, people may start avoiding the very arenas where life happens—public speaking, intimacy, confrontation, activism—because the sensation of fear feels like failure. El Saadawi’s phrasing suggests a strategy: treat fear as a passing signal, not a verdict on your character.
Psychology’s Name for the Spiral
In psychological terms, fear of fear resembles what clinicians call anxiety sensitivity: the tendency to interpret anxiety symptoms as dangerous in themselves. Panic disorder models often describe a feedback loop where bodily cues (racing heart, short breath) are misread as catastrophe, intensifying fear and producing more symptoms in return. Consequently, El Saadawi’s insight reads like a compressed therapeutic principle: the sensation is not the same as the threat. When fear is no longer treated as proof of impending ruin, it loses much of its power to escalate.
Courage as Agency, Not Absence
From there, the quote nudges us toward a practical definition of courage: the capacity to act while afraid. This aligns with the long-standing view that bravery is not the lack of fear but the choice to proceed despite it, a theme echoed in Stoic thought where emotions arise but need not command assent (Epictetus’ Discourses, c. 108 AD, repeatedly distinguishes impressions from judgments). Thus, fearing “being afraid” becomes the real obstacle because it denies agency. If fear is permitted to exist without shame, action becomes possible again—imperfect, trembling, but real.
A Feminist and Political Undertone
El Saadawi’s life and work as an Egyptian physician, writer, and feminist make the quote resonate beyond the personal. In many oppressive systems, fear is not incidental; it is cultivated—through stigma, punishment, and the constant suggestion that dissent will cost too much. The deepest control happens when people internalize that warning and begin policing themselves. Seen in that light, the “fear of being afraid” is also the fear of becoming governable from the inside. Refusing it becomes a political act: reclaiming the inner territory where decisions are made.
Practicing Freedom from Fear of Fear
Finally, the quote hints at a trainable skill: learning to experience fear without surrendering to it. Methods like gradual exposure in CBT aim precisely at this—repeatedly entering feared situations until fear becomes tolerable rather than decisive. Even simple practices such as labeling the emotion (“this is fear”), slowing breath, and choosing one small next step can weaken the reflex to flee. Over time, the goal is not a fearless life, but a larger one. When being afraid is no longer treated as an emergency, fear can appear and pass—while you continue forward.